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It has never crossed my mind to make you feel suffocated and not having any space. It really never ever crossed my mind. It has been a really tough journey for us to reach till here. As much as you are struggling, I am struggling too. I know its hard. But not having response from you, do you know how I felt? I just feel like I am hanging somewhere, not knowing what to do anymore. But still, I kept trying. I just pray that we can move on together. Sometimes, I just ask myself, why is it that I keep trying? And I kept praying to God and asking Him too. I know that through this period of time, God wants me to learn and lean more unto Him as it is by Gods strength that I am able to do it, and not by my own. Just as you want to move on, I want to move on too. I have been trying to move on in life, but somehow I just dont feel the peace in me. Sometimes, for no reason, I just have that kind of feeling that its as if im gonna sit for an exam later. I dont know why such a feeling surfaces. I thank God that at least I did not harden myself against Him, but instead draw closer to Him and to seek Him more. It is really amazing how God has guided me through so far, though I am still in the process. O Lord, please free me.