Mixed feelings, struggles.

Hi, it's been a long time since I last posted. All these while, I have no idea how I am feeling or what I am feeling. I just laugh and smile and try to be myself infront of everyone, showing and portraying the happy me that everything is going well and smooth. But, to be honest, I don't think that I'm in the least bit of being very happy. All the smiles and all does not feel real coming me, I can't comprehend that either. Only being in the midst of the people in 3B10, I am able to at least laugh m heart out at times, though sometimes, the things are not very funny to the extent that will make one laugh, but to me, it did help. I love their company. What can I say? They are just m awesome classmates in TP! <3.

Another thing, well, all these months has passed by, and things are just like this. I really want to talk, but do you know? I don't know if you do. Praying is the only thing that I can do. Praying and asking God. I want to feel the peace in me, inner peace. But, through all these months, this peace I don't have. Why? Is there something that God is trying to tell me? I have been waiting patiently for the answer and to see God's work. Slowly, in these months, I realised and saw the works of God surfacing to me and speaking to me in a little way. I believe all that has happened was God's plan, in the process to mould me and use me. And yeah, I know it has not been easy to come this far. I believe it was by God's grace that led me all the way here. Thank You, Lord. Your grace is sufficient for me. I believe in the plans You have for me. :)

To add on, sometimes, it just takes that little step of courage to face it. No matter how afraid you are, that little step of faith and courage can bring you far. Trust in the Lord that He will bring you through in facing it.

Thank You, Lord. You are my All in All.